Back in January 15′, even before I started this blog, I made a few goals. One of which would be to travel somewhere outside of the UK completely on my own. This may sound like nothing to a lot of seasoned travellers, but I’m a home bird and it was quite a big deal to me. I found this course I wanted to attend in Paris around the same time, and decided it was the perfect opportunity to achieve this goal.
I wanted to share with you all how I felt before, during, and after my trip. So that maybe some of you who want to take the leap but are a bit nervous, or have never considered it, or even gone loads of times can get a bit of insight into a first-timers head.
I’m really glad I chose to go on a course rather than just book an airbnb and hope for the best, because it gave me the chance to meet people as soon as I arrived. I know that if I hadn’t done that it’s unlikely I would have plucked up the courage to go out and make friends on my own, and probably would have had quite a solitary time otherwise. Although I’m happy spending time on my own, the first night I spent there before I met anyone, I was quite anxious. I think just the act of meeting someone in the city was quite reassuring, even if I had only known them a few hours.
Not only does it make being in a different country from your friends and family a little easier, but meeting people is a wonderful experience on it’s own. I met some beautiful people from all over the world that I’m sure I will stay in touch with, even now we are back on opposite sides of the planet.
As I’ve already said I was nervous on my first night in the city. I was staying in a lovely ‘Chambe De Merde’, which is an apartment on the top floor of a block in Paris. Although the flat was lovely and clean I felt nervous being there on my own, I could hear other people walking around the corridor, and I couldn’t help but feeling like I was vulnerable being on my own. However, after a few days, I felt a lot more comfortable, but that was because the flat I was staying in was so safe. I think in the future, I would always make this a priority when booking accommodation – because feeling at risk in a place where you need to sleep is not an enjoyable experience.
I did really enjoy spending time on my own as well as with the people I met, I looked round museums, and shops on my own, and having the ability to do whatever you want to when your on holiday is a really rare and wonderful thing. I had some time to really think, and consider things that are happening in my life, and having that time, has led me to make some new decisions, that I feel confident of, because I was able to consider them without any personal distractions.
Would I do it again?
The whole experience was really eye-opening, and put a lot of my anxiety into perspective. I don’t like the thought of missing out on things because I’m too scared to do them. I feel more prepared to travel further away in the future and for longer, now that I know I am actually capable of keeping myself alive.