I’ve never really been part of a girl gang. I’ve always had lots of friends, it’s just that they were never friends with each other, so when it came to socialising it would always be with just one or two other people. And I always felt like I was missing out on something. I think it was to do with my shyness. Although I often portray a confident exterior this is definitely something I’ve taught myself to do, and generally feel very different on the inside. This isn’t being fake. Parts of me are a confident and outgoing 25 year old girl boss whose taking on the world one blog post at a time, and parts of me are still the shy 5 year old who wouldn’t even talk to her grandma.
Talking to one or two other people is much easier than speaking up in front of a huge group, and if I’m honest I still find it scary, and often my confident outgoing personality can shut down and I find myself being very quiet at large social gatherings and events.
But I’m getting there.
And a lot of that is because of blogging. I’ve met so many lovely people who are so open and accepting of everyone whatever size, shape, or brain you may have. I’ve met people I feel comfortable with in a matter of seconds. I’ve met people I feel I can tell everything to, and say anything to without being laughed at. I’ve met people who let you be happy and fun, but also let you rant and rave about whatever’s going on.
We had a picnic with five whole people in attendance and I felt happy and comfortable the whole time. I didn’t feel like i was an afterthought, or no one really wanted me to be there, or that maybe I’d been invited by accident (all thoughts Ive had at large social get togethers in the past).
I felt happy and comfortable the whole time. And I think these outfit photos show that.
That may have also had something to do with the gin. But the gin was pink so that’s ok!
Thanks for listening to my little rambles and thoughts – back to Japan next! Big shout out to Erica, Katy, Jaye and Tasha for being great humans. They also have great blogs which you should go and read!